I heard a new song, well its probably not new at all but I am behind on music so its new to me. Its called "Don't Worry Now" by Britt Nicole and it really hit home. A lot of you know what is going on with my family and a lot of you do not. My youngest sister, Cari Leigh, is at a place called Remuda Ranch right now, which is a treatment center for women with eating disorders. My sister is so precious to our family and to my existence and I know that God is surrounding her with people who are going to help her in this journey she is facing...but its really hard to just sit back and not be able to help. When i heard this song it was a reminder of how little I really am in control of anything in my life and how BIG and in control God really is.... Everyday i need someone to punch me in the face and remind of this, because it is something i struggle with getting through my thick stubborn head. YOU ARE NOT IN CONTROL April, He is....
"I've been trying to find a way to understand
When I can't see the picture of God's plan
Why would He let us hurt so bad?
Could anything good come of these feelings that I have?
He loved me more than the sand on beaches
He loved me more than the grass is green
And even though he had to go I always knew his love was part of me
When you feel like you are all alone
Don't worry now...Don't worry now
I've been there yeah, I know how it feels
To wonder if love is even real
Don't worry now
Don't worry now...."
Miss you Cari Leigh Leigh, Can't wait to see your pretty smile....hang in there.
