Friday, July 13, 2012

June Girl

May 29 2012: We both woke up so excited about our 12 week appointment and ultrasound. We could not wait to see our sweet little baby again. We got to the doctor and went back with the ultrasound tech. She put the warm jelly on my stomach and within seconds we could see our little peanut squirming around on the screen. She was so active! And big! Tears filled my eyes. I was so happy. Then she said the dreaded words that we never thought we would hear, “Let me go get the doctor, I see some things that concern me.”

Everything since then has been a whirlwind…doctor’s appointments, tests, ultrasounds and heartache. We found out our baby girl had Turners syndrome and that we were going to lose her. It would only be a matter of time. Three weeks later she went to be with Jesus. As I sit here and write this I am numb. I don’t know why this happened to me. What Sayer and I did to deserve this pain. It will never make sense to me.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
-Jeremiah 29:11

I may not understand why this happened but I do know that God works everything for the good and I am holding tight to that promise.